i can't ever describe how wonderful today has been! oh, this girl...she is more beautiful and amazing then i could have ever imagined! the most precious and TINY being i have ever laid eyes on! i remember reading that we could be shocked at how tiny our baby girl will be...well, for sure, she is so teenie tiny its almost shocking. probably about the size of foster when he was born, no kidding! but her slender little legs and arms, oh so skinny and cute!! she has super long lashes, fingers and feet, and the softest and smoothest skin!
our first moments together were like a fairy tale. it is the senario i have drempt of come to life. the orphanage director walked in, and behind him a woman walked in carrying emery. we walked over, and she handed her to me right away. i was laughing and weeping and speechless. she didn't cry, but kept gazing into my eyes with her amazing baby browns. oh, they sparkle like diamonds! i felt like i was holding a little feather! "wo ai ni, wo ai ni, wo ai ni, bao bai" (i love you i love you i love you baby) i kept saying over and over. "piao liang nu er" (beautiful daughter) over and over. and she loved me. right from the start. clint was incredible and snapped pictures over and over. we tried to switch and i handed emery to him, but she instantly cried. when he gave her back to me, she stopped crying right away. it was magical. i know she will love clint. without a doubt. but in this moment, right now, i needed her love, and i know she needs mine.
one regret is that our new video camera (which recorded 5 min of amazingness) refused to save the video. not sure what happened, but i've decided not to harp on it. we don't have our gotcha moment on video. it's a big bummer. but thanks to clint, we have lots of photos, and they say it all.
we came back to our room and started feeding her and playing with stacking cups, which she loved! she cried on and off, and if i put her down she screamed. we gave her a bath and the smallest outfit i brought looks 5 sizes too big! we blew up balloons and suddenly she was laughing and giggling!!! she was so calm and amazing. after an hour, i put her in my mai tai wrap and in 15 min she was sound asleep, holding the lovey i brought her. its more than wonderful. better than amazing. miracle material. shes sleeping in my arms as i type this...my heart is bursting!!!
so much more to say, but its time to go meet the orphanage director and do paperwork...then food!