we are headed to CHOP tomorrow for our first meeting with the cleft surgical team, as well as the resident ENT. i'm prepping my brain to absorb mass amounts of information and i'm prepping my bag with a full day of snack and toys. it's going to be a long one, but i am glad to finally get a feel for the plan ahead, and be able to fire away my many questions. such as, how on earth is a palate repair done? i am fascinated by the process, and yet, terrified at the same time. i can't quite wrap my head around my baby girl having to undergo any kind of surgical procedure, let alone one so intense. i am hoping talking it out will help me feel more at ease.
if i'm being totally honest. i love her cleft. i love how she was created. if it wasn't for the speech and eating and people staring, i wouldn't change it. her smile is killer adorable. you know why? not just because i love the shape and beauty of her mouth, but because when she smiles, her eyes sparkle and smile as well. she's such a beauty. i can't picture her any other way than she is right now.